So Andrew leaves in five days. He'll be gone Monday through Friday until mid-July-ish. I can pick him up on Fridays and bring him home for the weekend, but will have to take him back on Sundays. We're also trying to save money for our (presumed) trip to California this summer and this is going to be even harder to do since all this driving will be monstrous to our budget. Such is life.

Here is what scares me: I'm afraid I'm going to go crazy again. Logically, I know this is not going to happen, but emotionally I'm having a hard time moving past that. Here is the convulted way that this works in my brain.

First, it assumes that having a baby was stressful and that I wasn't able to "handle" the stress and the result of that was my postpartum depression. (Again, I know that's not how it really works, but somehow this is where my brain is taking it.) Having Andrew gone will be a stressful situation too (topped off by all the normal financial woes of a one-income family trying to move across the country on crappy military rates). Since I had the postpartum depression I obviously do not handle stress very well. Therefore, this new stressful situation will push me over the edge and I'll go crazy again.

Tada! There's my delusion.